Realisation of the Self : A Poem resurrected from 2000

If life has a presence, a shadow cast over me
A ship traveling blind, raging out to sea
If life knows of friendship, navigating alone by the stars
This soulless adventurer slowly drifting afar.

If life has a sound, that of an intricate tune
A breath of the end, starting simply too soon.
The pulse of a heartbeat of one with no name
If life had a conscience, guilt with no shame.

Restrained of emotions, various depths of the sea
If life has a soul, its paid laid out for me,
Waiting for dawn, a sunrise never to come
Mirrors of self reflection, shattered and numb.

Dreams of new hopes and beginnings creeped into mind
Thoughts of existence reversed as each path unwinds
If life can cast magic, appearances disappear
No mind, body or soul - neither one there nor here.

A knot pitted against my stomach
Sight of nothingness, just staring at black
Freedom - the moment when I can be just me
Unleashed and broken from life - I'm never turning back.

Big Details of the Little Life.

The little things.
The little things are important.
The little things are what makes a difference.
The little things are what you cherish at the end.

Imagine.
Imagine if you only look forward to the big things.
What would you do in the time between?
Imagine if you only think and look at the big things.

This is what my life looks like. This is my life in the big picture.
Sleep. Food. New Project. Books. TV. Deadlines. Socializing.


Now, this is what my life looks like with the little things.

Waking up to the gentle morning breeze.
Salmon/crackers/salami...yum!
A problem with the "c" on my keyboard.
Warm Earl Grey tea....oooooh!
Stealing my sister's choc chip cookie.
The psychotic TV plot.
Craving for a taste of the passion fruit margarita.
Sniffing my pillow.

It's the little things that makes up the "life" in living.
My life is not big but I enjoy the little things. The little things are what makes my life BIG.

*Crunch*, Back to finishing those cookies before my sister wakes up!