I've been sad, disappointed, happy, angry, eluded for the last few weeks.
Right now I'm at a point in my life where I'm standing at a crossroad,
Or try to forget?
I've been blinded by my own creation of a fantasy world partially contributed to his gentlemanly acts in the one year I've known him which I've never experienced before.
The majority of the time, I was consumed by confusion, sadness, paranoia, fear and disappointment.
Confused by his intentions, Sad from being let down , Paranoid that there are others, Disappointed with myself and from my stupidity (or rather blindness).
Despite all these negative emotions I've been engulfed in, the small slice of moments I've had with him were ones of the happiest I've had.
How is it that the same person who gives you the joyous moment of your life is able to tear it down within seconds inflicting tears in your eyes and bringing you down on your knees.
Some things are better left unsaid, some memories better left untainted, some questions best left unanswered.
I'll try to keep the best memories I have of you and your greatest acts no matter how fake they might be been and despite the disrespect I've been given in the last few weeks.